After the crash of the Kerberos mission, no one gave me any information about what happened. All that was given to me and mom was the crash occurred due to 'pilot error'. There had
to be more than that, I was sure of it! I lost count of how many times I tried to sneak into the Galaxy Garrison academy in order to find information on my missing brother and father who were two members on the Kerberos mission.
Dad always told me that I would do great things one day, just like how he and Matt were going to another planet on a research mission. That one day I was going to do something that would make the whole universe stand up and take notice. Some days it felt like he was one of the only people who believed in me. Matt was like my best friend who would always help me out when I needed it. That's where 'Pidge' came from. It was a nickname that my brother gave me before he left the earth and never came back.
I knew the Garrison was holding out on me.
They had to be.
After trying so many times to get the information myself... there was only one option left. I had to go undercover and get the information from the inside. Since I'd tried to get in so many times they knew my face, what I looked like and what I wore. It would've been impossible to enter the Garrison again without being caught. There was only one option left.
Once all the preparations were complete, 'Pidge Gunderson' entered the Galaxy Garrison. I had to fake my medical records, id, gender, everything. Just so that no one would realize that I was the girl who kept breaking in to find out their 'top-secret' information. Since I was a student there, I had to be put into a team of three.
Lance and Hunk.... weren't what I was expecting. They worked well together I guess but I expected more serious pilots. Hunk seemed pretty timid, almost like he was following Lance around while Lance himself was goofy. Not the kind of person I expected to see at a school for space pilots. First off, I didn't want anything to do with them. The only reason I was on their team was so I could get closer to the information I needed to find my family. I always shot them down, brushed off any suggestions they made for hanging out because it didn't matter OK? All that did matter was finding out the truth behind what happened at Kerberos.
It didn't help that Lance was one of the worst pilots I'd ever seen.
I should've known that Lance would find a way to throw an entire team of five
into something way over our heads. But we probably had it coming considering we investigated a ship which crash landed from the sky, only to find the pilot of the Kerberos mission there who was already being rescued by a Garrison dropout. I mean, earlier that day the simulation that Hunk, Lance and me went through was a complete disaster but somehow we'd managed to get ourselves into a whole other solar system.
By flying a giant lion.
Through a wormhole.
Meeting Coran and Allura at the Castle of Lions... that changed a lot of things. For everyone. Well there was the fact that both Coran and Allura were aliens, actual aliens, who came out of cyrogenetic sleep pods after ten thousand years. We were surrounded by all this alien technology... actually that part was pretty cool. I didn't know how any of it worked which made it feel like this whole new adventure. Coran was something else. He acted a bit like Lance and I could actually feel my eyes roll as they exchanged verbal 'I could do this to you'. Allura acted a lot like a noble or royalty. Like some of the shows you'd see on TV. Sure it turned out that she was a Princess but I didn't know that at the time. Found out a few minutes later
It was there that we were told that our destiny was to pilot the Lions of Voltron. Voltron was meant to be this 'Defender of the Universe' who was piloted by five Paladins, each with their own 'Lion' or section of Voltron. It was basically a huge war machine and the Lion we arrived in was one of the five. The 'destiny' of being one of the Paladins was mean to be ours; Hunk, Lance, Shiro, Keith and me. Each of us was supposed to find and pilot a Lion then come together to form Voltron. Anyway the biggest problem was finding the lions since they were scattered all across the universe. Lance already had his lion so he played taxi for Hunk, taking them to the Yellow Lion while Shiro and I went to find the Green Lion.
I'm glad I didn't have to fly Yellow. The planet Hunk and Lance had to go to was way too much trouble.
As for me and Shiro, we had it easy. The planet we arrived on was the least hostile I'd ever seen. Forests everywhere, lakes and it gave me that rainforest feel. It was actually really amazing that for ten thousand years the Green Lion had been on that planet with no one to pilot it. Which got me worrying. What if I wasn't meant to pilot the lion? What if I was too short? What if I couldn't reach the pedals? What if it didn't have pedals?! It felt like I was in too far over my head and that I wasn't meant to be here in the first place. Actually, it was Shiro was gave me the push I needed to climb up and find the Green Lion. If he hadn't been there... I don't think I would've managed to do it.
Getting the Red Lion for Keith was more difficult than the others considering it was on a Galra Ship. Who are these purple aliens who were taking over the entire Universe under this Zarkon guy's command. On board were prisoners who knew both Shiro and Matt when they were captured a year ago and I wasn't going to just let that go. My brother could have been on that ship. I'd been looking for my missing family for so long, I wasn't just going to walk past when I had a chance.
They weren't there though. Even after everything we went through to rescue the prisoners they weren't there. Making things worse was the fact that Shiro might have injured my brother. I just.... I didn't know what to think.
Still this was the closest thing I'd come to having a team. Mismatched with Lance and Hunk getting on my nerves sometimes but... I don't think that we would've made it this far if we weren't the ones there. If it wasn't the five of us then things could've been completely different.
I'm choosing to believe that.
I wanted to leave Team Voltron.
There was information about my family that I could use to track them down, find them, rescue them if I needed to. Finding Matt and my father was always going to be my top priority and it was going to put the others in danger. It made sense for me to leave them behind if I was putting the others at risk.
Or I was going to until the Castle lost power. I was trapped in the Hanger and I had to know what was going on. Well it turned out that Lance was in a coma, Keith and Allura were trapped outside with Shiro captured by the invading Galra. The safety of everyone on the team and the planet was in my hands.
Basically I had to sneak past all the sentries, get to the central control unit and find a way to disable the particle barrier so Keith and Allura could get inside all while stopping the Castle from taking off. It wasn't easy. There were all different layers of new security that the Galra put in place. But they had Shiro.... and I couldn't let them hurt him anymore.
It was actually the mice who stopped the launch. But I guess as long as everything ended well it doesn't matter who did what. I guess that was when I realized that... I had a crew just like my father would always talk about. A crew to look out for me and who I could look out for. For me... it was Team Voltron. It just annoys me that it took that long for me to realize that.
The entire team got overconfident. We'd been doing so well that everyone thought we could take on Zarkon. But that was just it; we were overconfident. We weren't ready at all. Going into that fight it looked like we had everything under control. I'd even say that we were wining
. It looked like Zarkon's fighters were backing off as the Lions tore through each of them, lowering the numbers. For a while it felt like we were actually going to beat Zarkon once and for all!
So much for that plan.
Everything was chaos. Zarkon had a plan the entire time. Just as we moved to form Voltron, Zarkon used some kind of beam to pull us apart. Kind of like a tractor beam working in reserve, keeping the Lions for coming together. Then Keith thought it would be a great idea to go ahead and attack Zarkon on his own. You can imagine how that went. All I could do was watch as our Red Paladin went toe-to-toe with Zarkon - who wasn't in any kind of machine by the way - before being beaten to the point where it looked like the Red Lion was going to fall apart. No amount of cloaking device was going to help and I felt like this was all my fault. If I'd said something or voiced any kind of concerns maybe we could've waiting a little bit longer before attacking. In the end, the only option was to retreat.
Allura fired up the wormhole generator of the Castle of Lions to get us out of there, but Zarkon had a plan for that as well. Just as it looked like we might get away, like there was even a slight chance of us being able to regroup, he shot another weapon into the wormhole. The entire thing was unstable and the last thing I remember seeing was the Red, Blue, Yellow and Black Lions flying in all directions while I spun out of control in another direction, away from the others.
How long has it been since I last saw my team? Months? Years? I'm leaning more to years. It feels like forever and I've almost forgotten what they each sound like. I can't remember the taste of Hunk's space goo that he actually manages to change into something edible, the sound of Lance flirting with everything that passes his way, Keith and Shiro..... I'm forgetting it all. Piece by piece.
That's what Elysion does to you. It puts you into an unfamiliar world where there's no problems like the ones where you're from, lulling you into a false sense of security. From there you just... forget. The people you've met, your family, your experiences. It makes you feel as though you've been living here for your entire life.
I've built a life for myself here. People come to me when they need something hacked, I do it for a decent price. Sure I have a secrecy act where I don't ask questions and I don't tell anyone what I've done before. That's part of the job. I just do what I'm paid for, then forget about it.
Oh. I gave up looking for the others months ago. All those days of waking up, checking the new IDs and not seeing anything... you can only take so many days of that. Not seeing their names pop up on the new residents list, not seeing any trace of them anywhere. I gave up. It was like part of me died each time I looked.
Green's.... well I've hidden the Green Lion away. Not in Terminus obviously. There's not enough space and it would be pretty obvious to people that I have an alien warmachine parked nearby. Green would get confiscated or something and I don't want my Lion in anyone's hands other than my own. Zephyr is a good enough place I guess.... I make regular visits to make sure that no one's touched my lion.
Did I forget to mention? I grew my hair out. It's longer than before and reminds me of the days before the Kerberos mission. Guess I'm still clinging onto things after all.