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ERWIN SMITH

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erwin smith

Look into my eyes, It's where my demons hide, Don't get too close because It's dark inside

the basics

full name erwin smith
age thirty seven
occupation none
species human
pronouns he/him
usergroup zephyr
fandom attack on titan


the powers

combat
9/10
initiative
10/10
wits
10/10
teamwork
7/10
ruthless
10/10

outside of these specified skillsets, erwin is a generally athletic man. he's always had a natural curiosity for the secrets around him which leads to him asking questions relentlessly until he gets answers (if he ever does). outside of his thirst for knowledge and general sportsmanship, erwin is also highly skilled in using the 3-d maneuvering gear as well as general combat knowledge and horsemanship. it's this knowledge that lead to him becoming a commander of the survey corps quite early and also in his creation of the long-distance enemy scouting formation. he's a master strategist and tends to ignore his limits and push himself and his team forward to their breaking points.


the canon

from chapter 49 where the titan has his arm in it's mouth and he yells at his team to continue the charge. he blacks out shortly due to the pain/blood loss and wakes up in elysion, fashioning a makeshift tourniquet before heading to the closest hospital.
the war to end all wars they said and were naively believed

you remember once, reading a book about a man and his son locked away in a prison who collected the feathers of birds as the feathers fell into their cell. they were creating a set of wings for the both of them, so that they might escape their prison. the wings were made from the feathers and held together with glue, limiting how high they would be able to fly during their escape. the father had warned the son, do not fly too close to the sun or the glue holding the feathers together will burn. the son had laughed, claimed he wanted to see how much freedom he really had, that he wouldn't get hurt from flying too close to the dangerous sun. in the end, the son had fallen. his wings burnt and crisp and his form broken on the ground below as his father could only cry out in horror.

you vowed to never be like that son.

you tried your best to make your family proud, to make something of yourself no matter what happened. that's why you were always asking questions, always letting your mind wander and your thirst for knowledge grow. it could never be quenched it seemed, no matter how many times your father answered question after questions, there was another five in its place. you remember the joyous ways in which your father would laugh at some of your questions, how he would fill you in on his ideals and thoughts of a time before the titans ruled beyond the walls.

it was treason to talk that way. your father never shared his thoughts with anyone but you, but you had the bright idea to share it with some of your friends. a child's mind always likes to sugar coat things, that's why you told these so called friends what your father believed. that the king had brainwashed people to forget about a time before titans so that he could control those within the walls easier. it made sense, how everyone just let themselves be content behind a towering wall while beasts roamed free. as if humans were the caged animals, waiting to be chosen and slaughtered as they did to farm animals. you hadn't realized that what your father had told you was a secret. that it wasn't supposed to be shared with anyone.

at least not until your father never came home.

it was disconcerting, waking up to an empty house, your mother long gone from your life and now your father not returning home from his venture to the market the night before. you hear murmurs that the first interior squad of the police brigade was running around town, cracking down on traitors and the like and you think nothing of it. what do they have to do with you? a small child and his father, the teacher, there's nothing for you to worry about. not until you hear that they'd caught someone, someone who was spouting lies about the king and the titans and your heart was fluttering more than you could ever imagine. it couldn't be your father, it couldn't.

it wasn't and you thanked the gods for that.

except your father still didn't come home. he wasn't captured by the first interior squad, yet he laid slain in the market place, left to bleed out on the streets like a pig lead to their slaughter. you weren't the one to find him, you didn't even know he was dead until the military police brigade showed up to tell you that they'd found his body. you couldn't support yourself, you were a child after all, but the training corps looked after their students - gave them a place to sleep, food, clothes. it was really your only option so at least it was a good thing you'd already planned on joining their ranks.

the poppies grow between the crosses that mark our place

your goal after graduating from the training corps was the survey corps. you'd made a friend at training corps, a good one, one that you didn't want to leave your side and was going to join the survey corps with you. nile, he was a good guy, you two got along well, at least until a girl came along and got in between you. being invested in this dream of finding where the titans came from, you graciously step back. you can forsake your love for your dream, something that you realize stands true as you continue to make our way through the training corps. you and nile remain close, even while he continues to date maria.

even when he turns his back on you to join the military police brigade instead of the survey corps. it stings, but you'll survive. you promised to survive after all. you stick with your dream, taking a spot in the survey corps, quickly becoming elevated in rank compared to your fellow corps members. your first major accomplishment was as a squad leader.

a new formation technique for attacking titans to reduce casualties. at first, everyone was skeptical, it couldn't possibly work, there was no way to reduce the amount of people that died at the hands of the titans. and yet, the technique proved useful, productive, it worked. though despite how many lives the long-distance scouting formation saved lives, it didn't stop all the casualties of war. there was absolutely no way you could play god and stop that - even if you wanted to. however, you supposed that these people were dying for the greater good, they were dying to save humanity after all.

that's how you reasoned with yourself at least. that everyone you grew to know would wind up dying, it was the easiest way to live this life. without making connections, without forming any bonds because the moment you did, they'd be taken away from you. that hardy thought is how you continued to excel in the ranks, continued to improve your techniques and tactics, proving yourself to be more than adept at the fight you were willing to undertake.

it's not long before you're taking over from commander shadis, the first commander to take over for another commander before they've died. it's unheard of for a commander to relinquish their power, but shadis was always a smart man, knew when to back down and retreat and when he couldn't do things on his own. it was... exhilarating, this power you now held at the palm of your hands. the first to be given command while another commander still lived and one of the youngest commanders to take power. so far it seemed like your career in the survey corps was one of the best things to happen to you.

despite the amount of titan attacks, you manage to keep a majority of your subordinates alive. it's hard and time consuming and you know you look far older than you really are, but that's what stress does to you. you've been reprimanded by nile the few times you are able to meet up with him in the year. reprimanded by mike, a subordinate that you've happened to grow fond of and almost replaces that kinship you'd felt with nile all those years ago. you know they worry for you, but you can't worry about yourself. you'd joined the survey corps with a selfish reason and you weren't going to be selfish enough to worry about your own insecurities and troubles. not when the bigger picture was finding out how to stop the titans once and for all.

it takes a couple more years before you find another thing that's good for you.

for their survival they must discern the peaceful road

you first hear about these kids through one of your subordinates, a small group of kids using the 3-d maneuvering gear to pull off petty thefts. at first you're impressed, not many people can teach themselves how to use the gear without harming themselves. so they fact that mere children were doing something that took you years to master, it was unfathomable.

the first opportunity to scout the streets, you're out looking. mike questions your actions, wonders why you're so interested in a bunch of street rats and you just smile and wave him on, his answers will come shortly. you want to see these kids with your own eyes first. it's almost pure luck that you run into them when you do, stopping them from whatever theft they were trying to organize that day.

you demand answers from their leader, at least the scrappy young brunette looks to be their leader as he was the most skilled in using the gear. it's surprising to hear that no one had really taught him anything, that everything he'd done was purely self-taught. it was amazing what he could do, if only he would join the survey corps.

that's when the gears in your mind start turning, you offer all three of them a deal. join the survey corps and crawl out of this hell or be turned into the military police brigade and be thrown into an even worse hell than the streets provided. the other two agree readily, it's the last one, the leader that you need to convince. you don't need to convince him though, he'll join the survey corps as you whisper a few choice words into his ear before the brunette is standing up and following the rest of your subordinates towards the barracks.

it was easier to get them to join than it was to train them. they were decent, but their raw natural talent could only get them so far, could only keep them elevated above their peers for so long. except for the leader, levi. he was the only one who continued to rise above those around him, to out maneuver even the most trained scouts, even yourself. it was pure, unadulterated talent. you'd never seen anything like it.

as levi proves himself on the battlefield, hange is quick to point out that a new squad captain is needed and she's quick to point to who she thinks it should be. you're not sure why you let her get close to you, to find a perch on your shoulder and squawk like the pet bird you never wanted. but you know her advice is well met, a new squad captain is needed and levi is the best option. you're hesitant about the promotion, but he's proven himself time and time again despite his constant desire to undermine your command. you know it isn't because of how you run things, but instead a personal desire of levi's to get his revenge on you though there's no real reason why he feels this way. you've done nothing but try to help him out of his shitty situations.

it's more of a shock when it's discovered that titans are humans. were humans, can be humans. it's as if your father's theories have come to life and you don't feel so idiotic for believing in them. there were even humans amongst the survey corps who could transform into titans. you're hesitant at first, titans only mean to kill and destroy, so wouldn't one that's involved with the survey corps be just the same? it's weird having eren under your command, having control over one more thing that brings you power. the lustful taste of power is heedy, alluring, you give in to the temptations at times, you grow too cocky for your position. levi is there with a glower to bring you right back to your feet.

deep down, you knew the government was corrupt, you knew there was some secret they were hiding like your father had told you when you were a boy. you see this at work as they try to have a trial about eren despite him doing nothing but provide help for the survey corps. they simply want a scapegoat for the wrongdoings of the titans and he's the easiest one to get their hands one. thankfully there's a distraction at wall rose and the trail can't be carried through at the moment.

it's one of the largest attacks that you have seen before in your life. there's so many titans approaching the wall, that it's hard to use the long distance formation. for once, you are scrambling with a tactic that can be used to help the survey corps win this battle and yet you can think of nothing but charging forward at this problem head on. it's dumb, you know that, levi knows that, hange knows that. and yet no one can think of anything better. with a yell full of as much bravado as you can muster, you tell everyone to ready their horses and then charge.

one second you're steering your horse in the direction of the massive group of titans, the next there's an earth-shattering pain in your arm and then you are flying. you feel like the son that started to fly too close to the sun with his makeshift wings. only you know that's not why you're in the air, not why you feel this pain. disappointment floods your senses as you realize that you likely won't make it out of this in one piece, maybe not even alive. with what little sense you have left, you yell at the squads to continue onward - to continue the fight for humanity. you'd already talked to hange about what should happen if you were to die on a mission.

the pain grows stronger, your vision fading quickly as you realize you're losing too much blood at too fast a rate for your body to sustain itself. keeping the fear from your eyes, you feebly try to get the titan to release your arm, but it's pointless, only makes the pain and failing sight worse. with a crunch you feel your bones snap and you're falling, the ground rushing up to meet you and at least you have enough decency to remember to roll upon impact.

laying in a daze, you feel the pounding in your body, the faint beating of your heart as you close your eyes. the darkness surrounding your vision making it pointless to keep them open any longer. steeling yourself, you manage to tear a strip of cloth from your scouting cape and fasten it around your arm to help quell the bleeding. it does nothing to quench the pain.

and you realize, with a sad smile, that you've finally lost your wings.

i do not love you for your
strength and grit, for your set jaw,
for the harsh cartography of your knuckled
fist. i do not love you for your
sharp corners.
i rub your tensed wrist like
a pliant mouth, i wait for spread
fingers and vulnerable palm: a
hollow nest to dream in.
i want the hurt you soothe like an
ulcer in your mouth, your night terror,
your raw-eyed vulnerability: these
unarmored parts which
are mine alone.
darling, you are not at war.
slow down, breathe dep, drop your guard.
no one is chasing you but me.

summary

commander erwin smith here! he's a typical military styled character - smart and strategical and tends to favor the victorious outcomes of the battle over the lives of soldiers. he's both lauded and reprimanded for that fact since he's let numerous survey corp soldiers and civilians die if it was for the Greater Good. outside of that, he's actually quite friendly, though he tends to shut himself off and focus on the task at hand instead of being buddy-buddy with people. he's the first commander to be given the title before the previous commander was killed and it was due to his tactical and strategic background that gave him this edge. also the superb reviews of the new formation technique that he created that resulted in less deaths of survey corps members than previous battles with titans. so basically his life is very military based and he actually found himself in elysion after passing out during a battle with a titan! he's not been in elysion for very long, long enough to get medical attention and then released. due to the battle, his right arm was ripped off by the titan who caught him, so he's trying to cope with the sudden loss of his arm and being in a familiar place. he hides nearly everything behind a cold face, but that's from how he's constantly calculating and making decisions and trying to be five steps ahead of the present, not because he's disinterested in something.


platonic

as a commander, most everyone else was below his position and he couldn't really interact with them as he would with friends. of course, he had those close to him and he trusted them, but he still held them at an arm's reach away. despite erwin's usually stoic composure, he can be quite friendly. he's also insanely charismatic, seen as how he talked people into joining the survey corps all the time and also saved eren from the military tribunal. since he's no longer in his world and no longer under the overwhelming presence of titans, i think erwin will be a lot more open and willing to accept people. of course, he will be rather... aloof? towards new people until he gauges their personality, but he's usually pretty quick about that. i'd actually love for him to get a handful of new friends that are there to support him and just help him move on from everything? i don't think he ever really got that in the series outside of like two childhood friends lol and he needs more thank you.


antagonistic

one of his problems is that he just doesn't know when to quit lol. so he's constantly pushing the boundaries of things and taking risks when he shouldn't. i think it'll be toned down quite a bit here in elysion and zephyr, but his thirst for knowledge and understanding the world is still just as large. back home, people hated him for his almost careless way of letting his subordinates die in battle, but here i don't think too many people should dislike him? he's a middle class child and was trained from a young age for combat. so maybe he just strikes people as annoying or cocky or something? idk, i'm sure some of these could be fun but i just really want good things for this boy because he deserves so much.


romantic

this is a bit complicated since after falling in love with the same girl that his childhood friend fell in love with, he took a step back and let nile date her. after that and due to the way the survey corps operated, erwin felt it was easier to not date someone since he wasn't sure if he'd come back from missions. since he wasn't sure when he would die, he often just found comfort for a night and usually only if he knew it was going to be a particularly dangerous mission and his stress was running high. since coming to elysion, he's not been with any body due to mainly being in the hospital. he's been harboring some feelings for his right hand man that he's never really expressed or even taken an interest in himself except to acknowledge that there's something more than just friendship that he feels towards the other, though he's not tried to put a name to it before. in the long run, his final will be taken, but i'm always down for au plots!

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bet you didn't see this coming, bre with another injured soldier boy. no triggers, but just ask about questionable stuff before hand! also merry (late) christmas, here's your surprise present LAUZ also fun fact, the font is called stalemate and i find it ironic lol
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hello! embrace my shitty plotting, please! mikasa remembers him, but hasn't been around him long enough to form a very sustainable opinion. right now he's just 'that dude' to her, but since he's close to levi (and mikasa and levi aren't on the best of terms) she keeps him at arms length. yes, she once fought with him/under him (i have no clue anymore, save me), and she'll respect his warrior/soldier side, but apart from that she's still a bit skeptical about him. i do think that they have the potential to grow into friends, it's just that mikasa is very careful with who she trusts. told you this plot was shit xD
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erwin + keith
as we all know, keith is a Disobedient Pocket Knife™ and sometimes needs to be fucking Stopped. so first off, he doesn't want a Dad. he had one and then said dad disappeared he doesn't need another one, thank you very much. he doesn't NEED ANYONE. jk he does, but i mean, you know how well he listens to advice. he's not really in the mood to listen or take anyone's advice, and i mean he's like. you literally don't need to lecture me about the inevitability of death and the fact my reckless behavior can cost me my life or other's lives because i was out in the universe fighting aliens in a giant robotic lion ok pal. LIKE HE'D JUST. he wouldn't take really kindly to that and he'd just see it as being treated like a child of which he is not. so first and foremost, erwin, he doesn't like you. secondly, he would like levi even fucking less. especially because, as you know, levi deals with insolent children in a way that you Should Not Deal With Insolent Children and keith gets hurt enough, he doesn't need to be fucked up by levi cause he's not listening. so honestly any time he sees erwin its gonna be like a bristling cat just consistently like D< lmfao even those times when he's not doing anything shady and he's just hanging around zephyr looking for like, idk, fresh ingredients for dinner and shit, sees erwin hanging around and he's like I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING. DON'T EVEN LOOK AT ME. he's just. cut him some slack, erwin.
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erwin + keith
keith is glaring and he's feeling really galra about it all, which means erwin you might die. you know him, he doesn't like authority, or anyone telling him what to do, and he only accepts it from shiro cause its shiro. literally do not ever guilt trip him about that shit he'd get so angry because damn it he knows but he can't do anything else right now, mercenary work is what he's good at!!! but really it'd be so stupid any time he sees erwin he'd be like guh and leave immediately like do not try and talk to me, do not try and dad me, i'm not doing anything i'm here just GETTING SOMETHING B Y E !
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ragna + erwin
i'm not too sure how they could meet... what i do know is they can get along well and ragna can sympathize with him losing an arm seeing as ragna has .. well .. no arms, technically speaking. they're both prosthetics. they can talk to each other about various topics since they do have enough in common, although erwin's life seems a tad more normal than ragna's.

if i can find a way for them to meet, i'd love for them to be friends at some point considering i don't see erwin sitting on a bench feeding the pigeons any time soon. i could use a second opinion on how to start if you don't mind, this could be the beginning of a very nice little friendship tbh!!

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