there's a certain beauty to living in affluence, living among it. a certain beauty to the isolation and the lack thereof. on one hand you grew up completely isolated from everyone. you were always better than someone and too good for others. your parents wanted the best for you and because you were raised to be obedient, you went along with anything and everything they told you. you never questioned anything, did all the lessons they paid for, and became quite the modern day princess. your father was a tycoon and almost always gone. you saw him, but very rarely, and when you did it was incredibly superficial. it was quite clear, even at a young age, that he was only there because he was your father and it was expected of him. that didn't stop you from loving him though or from looking up to him. he was powerful and strong, he commanded the world and you wanted to be as close to him as possible.
your mother was similar, but you saw her far more frequently than you did your father. she was the definition of beauty and grace and you longed to one be just like her. as a girl you were awkward, often too tall for the other girls your age. your limbs longer, your body structured differently. your face was too small for your nose... or was it the other way around? your hair too frizzy and far too unmanageable. when you looked in the mirror there was no shortage of things you could pin point about yourself that you didn't like. but your mother told you each and every day that you were beautiful and that was enough to keep you going. your so called friends did the same, every day telling you how they envied your hair or your eyes or some other superficial thing. just once you wanted someone to recognize a part of you no one could see. that you were kind or smart or funny or anything but pretty.
as you grew up you developed a close knit circle of friends, though it was obvious they were merely there for your money and the things you could offer them. you held onto them as tightly as you could because you didn't have many others. it didn't take long before you were done with school. a star swimmer, talented painter, and master violinist. you were going into college when your entire life changed. it all came to you in a series of dreams. almost like visions they came to you, replaying your past life as a guardian of the outer solar system. you saw the final fight at the moon kingdom and though you yearned to help, you could not leave your post. each dream more vivid than the last, the final dream, the one that allowed you to finally wake from your slumber, was of the moment you died. you simply remember reaching out to the blonde of the three of you, uranus, and then everything was gone. everything was black. that night you woke up in a cold sweat and you knew you had to find them.
it didn't take long at all. fate seemed to want you two to find each other. you met them at school oddly enough and something inside you simply knew. one look into those blue eyes and everything made sense. for the first time in your life you weren't with someone that wanted something from you. in fact they almost denied you outright. you'd always ben driven by emotion, though you hid it well before, it was hard to now. now that you were with her. there was something beautiful about finding your other half. your power was drawn from the sea and hers, those of uranus, were drawn from the sky. water and wind. from the moment you met, you only wanted her to be the best version of her she could be. or he, or whichever felt more right to them. you were accepting of their wants, their needs, you knew it would be hard at first. you weren't trying to change her even though she seemed to think you wanted to. all you knew was that you'd found her, haruka, and you couldn't imagine any version of your life without her. whatever that meant.
the fights started shortly after you were reunited with uranus. it was evident that your princess was already awake and with the help of luna to boot. she was headstrong and determined not to lose anyone. you weren't so sure her methods were sound, you knew that her love, ultimately, was a weakness. even so she surprised you. when you thought the only way to stop saturn was to kill her, she proved you wrong. it didn't take long for you to realize that she was far stronger than you ever imagined her to be. and though your heart belonged to your partner uranus, just about every ounce of respect you had went to her. her strength lie not only in her physical ability to defeat her enemies but also in the love she gave to those around her. and when it came time to face a new threat you did everything you could for her. galaxia was the enemy that brought about your end.
the inner senshi were all dead and gone, their starseeds stolen from them and you and the other outer senshi had failed. where they were supposed to be the front line, they hadn't been able to protect their princess properly. all that was left then were the starlights and while they weren't much, they were something. so the four of you developed a plan. you and uranus would pretend to be aligned with galaxia. and once you'd gained her trust you would turn on her and kill her. it broke your heart to kill pluto and saturn, they were your partners as much as uranus was, but it was for the greater good. with their deaths you gained the trust of the golden queen and from there you would be able to stop her.
the issue came when you and uranus went to rid the world of sailor galaxia. she didn't have a starseed and with your betrayal came your death. the last thing you remember seeing was uranus and the both of you breathed your last. there was a certain beauty to that darkness, even with how brief it was. when you woke you were in some place known as elysion. particularly in pandora. it didn't take long for you to figure out what exactly happened. but you didn't care. the heart break came when you realized you were there all alone.
haruka was gone and you were entirely on your own.